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When you need to stay, but you lose promise.


Hello There, I write this just to show how i’am in 3 last week without your text, your smile, your existence ,your accost , and your voice when you talk to me. Remember when we walking together, you holding my hands and say something, You act like you being me, you loving  me, and never losing  me. But, I know i’ts not always happend, I know that And i relized about that. I know if i’am just a girls who try to find special place in your heart, but actually i’am not special and i realize about that :’)
I know if  something happend in  your life,  i know if your so sad now. If you know, even though i act like i don’t care doesn’t mean i’m not worried about you, every time  i stalk in your account  socmed and try to know more about you from your friend, how are you? Fine or not. Where are you? Asked them you enter class or not?  I shy to call you, i shy to ask you, about  your condition and i’am scarred it’s disturb you. But, do you remember when  i text you from fb? I asked you there, and you respond my text I’am so glad, jump from my bed to show how glad i’am. After that, you rep my text shortly, and just give me simple responses and it’s make me so sad, i try to keep and not replay again.
I act like that because, i think i’ve been disturb you , i’ve been make you uncomfortable with me, i know that and relize about that. So, i try to didn’t call you anymore.  How pity i’am, how sad i’am and how broke me caused that. I don’t know what i have to do, i faulth, i’am stupid, i kill my self with this feeling. You know? I miss you, every time when i see you i just look on your face and  hidden my self. I’am not brave to meet you, i’am scared if i’ll disturb you a.
You know? Every girl have true feeling and it’s that i feels now. I feels losing, i feels something wrong, i feels you, who left me alone, and when it happend i remember when we talking, we walking and you holding . I said to my self “ Let him go, let it go, who are you? You just a girl to try find a special place in his heart but actually your not special and you have to relize about that”  that’s words always haunted me and try to tell if i have to realize and  let him go, cause i’am nothing :):’) Hey there, i feel it until 3 weeks, i feel that you left me alone, and i feel that i miss u more :’)
                        

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